Is running away, always a drastic move? Or could someone run away with like, peace & love & good-will?
Also, my friend, Lesley Nash has a super fun blog (LesleyNash.blogspot.com?), as does a woman named Alice, who is the creator of SavorySweetLife blog.
I got an e-mail from my dance coach at school that is really exciting- talking about auditions and practices and a competition!!! :-) I was also looking at pictures of my beautiful friends I met at NP and church and I received two e-mails from NP, as well. One of them telling me when I could move in to the house I am registered to live in. It's funny- the date is the same date that school/move-in is for Jackson Hole Bible College. Funny...right?
I SO don't know what to do and moreover, HOW TO DO IT! I think I just need to scream, get tattoos, smoke, and run through fields to touch God...I can't touch Him, but what I meant is, run through fields to feel Him- to know He's here and with me and touching me and wants me and loves me and is not irritated at me for- everything. For being so freeken discontent and shady and downcast. Guys....Lord...I almost feel like I am falling apart. I don't know what to do. Moreover- I don't know how to do whatever I need to do.
"I could run away....You would never leave...You will always stay right by my side..."
Even if I go to other things to try to gain footing or lose my confusion? Even if I- push everyone else away or fall apart?